{"id":231,"date":"2010-01-19T16:43:03","date_gmt":"2010-01-20T00:43:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.audreyy.com\/?p=231"},"modified":"2010-01-20T13:49:08","modified_gmt":"2010-01-20T21:49:08","slug":"january-thoughts","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.audreyy.com\/?p=231","title":{"rendered":"January thoughts"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/lh5.ggpht.com\/_hdVsr90J9m0\/S0K7MXKhmXI\/AAAAAAAAdOI\/NGFLsS2YWY0\/s720\/2009-12-31%2010.47.16.jpg\"><img fetchpriority=\"high\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft\" style=\"border: 0px initial initial;\" title=\"Snow dusted trashcan in NYC\" src=\"http:\/\/lh5.ggpht.com\/_hdVsr90J9m0\/S0K7MXKhmXI\/AAAAAAAAdOI\/NGFLsS2YWY0\/s720\/2009-12-31%2010.47.16.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"540\" height=\"720\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>My ability for self discipline has proven itself to be rather unreliable as of late. \u00c2\u00a0I think I&#8217;ve determined that there needs to be some strong external force motivating me, and then I&#8217;ll be self-regulating, but absent that, no go.<\/p>\n<p>Somehow, I got up every morning at 5am to go to swim practice in high school, and then for a quarter, did the same for crew.\u00c2\u00a0 Somehow, I actually trained for a marathon by myself. \u00c2\u00a0The external factors? Coaches, and fear of death (or at best, crippling pain) due to lack of preparation.<\/p>\n<p>Which means that while I&#8217;m not one for resolute anything,\u00c2\u00a0 the hubbub of new years do make me assess how my time has been spent (or slipped away) and if I like that or not.<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>I don&#8217;t like that I spend a lot of time online, sleeping, and thinking.<\/li>\n<li>I&#8217;d like\u00c2\u00a0to spent more time outside, taking photos, cooking food, and reading. Building stuff, maybe.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>For the first time in a while, I don&#8217;t feel like traveling at all.\u00c2\u00a0 Seems I may be headed to S. America (never been!) sometime in spring, but I&#8217;m oddly un-stoked.<\/p>\n<p>In lieu of stoked-ness,\u00c2\u00a0 there&#8217;s this weird sluggish-restlessness curled up in my brain.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Maybe I&#8217;m still adjusting to being back.\u00c2\u00a0 Maybe it&#8217;s just cold outside (we know that can have a nasty effect).<\/p>\n<p>Anyhow, my projects for the year are as follows:<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>find a place to buy<\/li>\n<li>read more*<\/li>\n<li>create stuff (food or projects or journals. something.)<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>Ideally, you know, I&#8217;d exercise regularly, eat more healthy, blah blah. \u00c2\u00a0But maybe the last two will help with those, and really &#8211; in absence of any external motivation<\/p>\n<p>*Without buying a fancy new gizmo to help me do so. \u00c2\u00a0Plenty in the libraries that Audrey hasn&#8217;t read yet.<\/p>\n<p>(I&#8217;m back in New York for the second time this year already. \u00c2\u00a0The first time was like the pic above, but this time I&#8217;ve got forty degree goodness going on. \u00c2\u00a0Not bad, considering there&#8217;s a\u00c2\u00a0<a href=\"http:\/\/abcnews.go.com\/Technology\/western-weather-storms-hit-california-rockies-desert-evacuations\/story?id=9603072\">storm splooshing over San Francisco<\/a>. )<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>My ability for self discipline has proven itself to be rather unreliable as of late. \u00c2\u00a0I think I&#8217;ve determined that there needs to be some strong external force motivating me, and then I&#8217;ll be self-regulating, but absent that, no go. 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